Today's been a really bad day. I don't know if it was because I was late getting out the door, spilling coffee all over myself, realizing I had nowhere near enough gas to get me to or from school (and so I had to scrape up enough money for a gallon. maybe), or barely making it to school on time, but it just was. And then everyone at school was fucking ridiculous and all my teachers were in really bad moods and just UGH. You know, one of those days.
Then today's election day and I'm terrified Romney will be elected over Obama. While I understand that his ideas and plans and promises mean nothing without congressional approval, to have a leader of my country who doesn't believe in women's rights, universal (low cost too) healthcare, marriage equality, the importance of educators, and easy access in students loans is absolutely ridiculous and unacceptable. These are the issues that speak to me, but those aren't the only ones that ensure me that Obama will do a better job in his second term than Romney in his first. This is 2012, not the Cold War! But not according to Romney's foreign policy. And yes, we need jobs, our unemployment is high, and Romney will create more numerically but NOT enough quality. Because there are too many college graduates, skilled workers, and people with other types of job experience to work on construction sites and in factories. We don't need to focus on manufacturing anymore. On an unrelated note, Obama's cooler. Any presidential candidate who can be easily made fun of to the point of pedophilia references should not be elected.
And then Mitchell's back. Earlier last week I was having coffee with Jenna and Chelsi (who's friends with Mitch on Facebook) and she showed me that "17 minutes ago" he was single. And so I impulsively decided to "friend" him again (in case I didn't post it last time, he unfriended me a few months ago because his girlfriend at the time didn't like him coming on to me). Within 2 minutes he accepted it, and we talked a couple days after. Then he confided in me all the problems he was having and his new [bad terrible addictive] habits, and then the other day when I tried to set a date to have coffee and talk about things he said it was a bad idea, not explaining why, and he hasn't said anything since. Like, seriously? I just want to help the poor kid. I feel terrible for what I did to him (even though it was nearly four years ago), and I've always wanted to make up for that. But he's never let me, not then and apparently not now. But while he hasn't talked to me, he has yet to unfriend me (yet again), so I don't even know what to think. It's just ridiculous.
Then TJ was supposed to come over after he ran some errands today but before he went to the polls (he turned 18 this past Saturday). By the time I got the text message from him saying he wasn't coming, today was already shot. And him not being here isn't any better. I'm just tired. Done. I recognize that this could just be the day but yesterday was kinda like this too. I'm ready for this year to be over. I'm ready for December 15 so I can hear from Rochester, because I'm terrified that I won't get in despite how in love I am with it. I'm scared to death that I'm going to be stuck here in Florida at least for the next six years because I hate it here for so many reasons. I'm ready to leave and it's a very real possibility that I won't be able to for awhile.
But some good news. Not only has TJ been accepted into IIT (Illinois Institute of Technology), but he received a scholarship totaling $100,000 ($20,000 per year for five years)! I could not be more excited and proud for him. That's his top choice university, and he's going to be able to go. It's amazing. Love that I get to share this with him. My only wish is that I can soon share his excitement with some of my own.
Anyway. Better go. Just tired.
Love,
Caitlyn
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