To Blair,

I only wish you could read this.

I hope you know if I were there, I'd be trying everything I could to be with Graham. I also hope you know I'm sorry if, he told you, I hurt you by pursuing him last winter when you two were together. In my defense, in my eyes, he was still mine and I had a chance. Also, I hope you know that you two won't last when he goes off to school; in case you haven't noticed, he's bad with distance (wasn't before, but now is a different story).

I don't know why you hate me, why you think I'm "psycho," but I don't judge you. I don't hate you or dislike you; I don't know you, thus it's unfair to make perceptions about you. When I texted a girl Graham cheated on me with, I was respectful because I didn't know her, and so you have no grounds on which to hate me. I wish you'd find the place inside yourself to stop hating me, as, again, you don't know me. Off of that, I hope you equally find it in yourself, when you stop disliking me, to allow Graham to talk to me if he wants to. Controlling a boy, especially him, won't get you anywhere.

Also, some hints (whether or not you need/want them). Love his family and appreciate them. They are perfect, especially his mom. Don't control Graham, don't break promises you made to him, don't lie to him. Most important of all is don't hurt him, regardless of how much the hurt is or the reason why or what exactly caused the hurt in the first place. No matter what, he doesn't deserve it. He is an amazing, well-rounded guy, a guy any girl would be lucky to have. I was incredibly lucky to have him for two years, and I was a fool for letting myself fuck it up over and over again. Never take him for granted, because he could have anybody at the drop of a hat but he chose you.

---Caitlyn (or Luna, depending on who you feel better knowing me as)