Excuse Me For Realism...

EDIT: on 8/14/10 we are no longer going to Homecoming and Facebook statuses have been changed.

Approximately ten minutes ago, I got off the phone with Graham, and we broke up. Again. However, it's different this time, because I have the hotel and plane tickets booked for his homecoming in October. The plan is to keep Facebook the same so we don't alarm some of our friends and family, but we aren't going to be talking to each other until we absolutely have to.

Early today, he started getting fed up with us being in an open relationship, along with bringing up his never-ending hurt feelings over what happened between James and I last winter. Of course, when he brought up the hurt feelings, he only said it contributed to him getting hurt about this open relationship. So he says that he's pulling the plug on the open relationship, because he claims that either way he's going to get hurt and that he'd rather have the option to punish me for cheating instead of him having to put up with it. I told him that realistically, we're both going to hurt each other again no matter what because there's three years left between now and the end of high school, and the odds of never cheating again are slim to none. He agreed with me, and then turned around and said that in order to preserve his feelings, he's going to run away from our relationship altogether. After about twenty or so minutes of being on the phone, we came to the resolution I posted earlier in this update. The phone conversation ended with him outright hanging up on me because I asked him how he was. Charming.

Honestly, I'm fed up. Really fed up. I'm tired of being used, emotionally abused, and overall being mistreated. I'm really done trying to put up with this on/off relationship. Yes, I still love him, but I'm finished putting my feelings aside so I don't hurt him. I'm ready to start living like a teenager and being the way I'm supposed to be. I will not give in to him if he comes to his senses. I'll see him at Homecoming, and then we're completely over until after high school at the earliest. If anyone that has my number or knows my Facebook reads this, please remind me repeatedly that long distance isn't worth it anymore and give me the reasons why. Thank you.

On a final note, school's on Monday and I cannot wait!

Love,
Caitlyn