Either today or tomorrow I'll hear about the final GRADE decision. I went up last week and seriously I never thought I could be more in love with Rochester. The snow was beautiful and in all honesty it wasn't too bad. Very nervous but excited. Both Ian and I are.
Oh yeah! I haven't mentioned Ian yet! Guess it's been awhile since I've last posted. Okay well he messaged me on Facebook soon after the official interviews for GRADE were sent out, and ever since we've just talked a lot. We agree on fundamentals of education and how the system should be. I don't know. He's just increasingly become one of my best friends, right up with Trick and TÃernan and Meredith. I don't even have the right words to describe him.
It's about to become spring break, and I've done quite a bit of thinking. It hit me when I went up to Rochester that, well, TJ and I aren't going to work. But let me back track. I've had a big problem with him being very disrespectful and clingy and overly sexual and let's not even get into how he gets borderline violent. Bottom line, we're not healthy. I told him everything and he hasn't really done much about it. Nothing's changed. And I don't feel like we should be together anymore. I plan on talking to him about that soon, maybe go on a break around when he goes up to Chicago over our break from school so he can get a feel of how life without me will be. I just don't want to hurt him too badly, you know?
I'm just ready to keep going with my life. I need that. I need some me time so I can be myself without someone always there. I haven't been single for an extended time in years. Really not healthy.
I'll probably update twitter or tumblr or something with GRADE results today or tomorrow, so keep checking! Fingers crossed!
*UPDATE FROM 4PM: talked to him. We broke up. I'm single.*
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