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Tonight is the first night of the rest of my life.

Okay maybe that was a tad dramatic just to say that the Common Application starts tonight at midnight. I will definitely be awake and applying to my last two universities as soon as I'm able. Then I can sit back, relax, and focus on my school work. I don't need the added stress right now.

I got this package in the mail today. TJ had told me he was sending me something, but he never really said exactly what was in it. I mean, I demanded Whales (the cracker that's a million times better than Goldfish), but the rest was up to him. I found old pajama pants, a pair of boxers, and a t-shirt from when he played for the local baseball team. And I almost cried.

When he isn't around and I'm by myself, or I know we won't see each other for awhile, or when I'm just down, I throw on something of his that he's given me. So far I've had two sweaters, Coca-Cola pants, and a pair of boxers. I brought the pants and boxers with me; the sweaters would've been too warm. For the last three weeks, I've worn the pants and boxers first once they went through the laundry because I miss him so much. And what does he do? Send me more. So incredibly sweet. Definitely showering early tonight and throwing on the tee and the "new" pants to wear around downstairs. I mean, is it just me who likes to throw on her boyfriend's clothes? Plenty of clothing companies advertise "boyfriend shirts" or "boyfriend jeans" to girls, not to mention I've met other girls who wear boxers as sleeping pants. It's just...comforting, especially when he can't be here.

Not like I really have to keep getting used to not having him around. Turns out he likes a local school in Rochester that has an architecture program he's fond of, and it ranks pretty high on his college list. Is it bad that I'm hoping for him to go to RIT in the scenario where I go to UR? It's weird. His top is IIT in Chicago, then RIT, then Penn State, then UF, and then UCF. As far as my top two go, the locations are switched. Ideally, we'll both go where we want to go regardless of the other person. I want to be happy where I go to college, and I want him happy, too. But is it such a terrible thing for me to want my top choice and him only get his second? He appears passive about the situation, although I don't buy it. Sometimes he's crazier about me than I am of him (and I'm pretty crazy about him in case you haven't noticed).

I wish I could teleport him here, but other than that I'm happy as can be. This place is perfect. I see myself everywhere. It's this weird feeling, actually, that I belong somewhere and that I'm meant to be there. That's my one wish, I guess: to have everyone experience this feeling. Truly amazing.

Today it's raining, and I refuse to run outside to Danforth just to not eat their crappy food so I'm watching the rain from my window whilst feeling the breeze from the storm. Kinda makes me want a nap and cuddle up in TJ's clothes instead of going out to a movie. Oh well.

Just a few more days! Then I get to see my super amazing cousin Brianne (who, from Japan, gave my blog 24 pageviews. 24!) and hang out and eat lunch with my dad and her and head on back to Florida where TJ will be waiting at the airport. He's so sweet.

Love,
Caitlyn