When was my last quality post?

It's been crazy here. Twitter account in case you haven't noticed, and I update as regularly as I can. Plus I can post with texts for small updates.

Deleted my Love, Interrupted blog. It's just too sad and I don't want to deal with it. That, and I was ignoring this lovely piece of work for far too long.

School's been alright, except nothing's the same without Graham. I miss him to death, and we're currently trying to be closer and whatnot, but it's going to be a long time before we get back to where we were before considering we decided that if we do decide to get back together we're starting over.

I'm with TJ now, and the relationship itself helps me feel better about where I am in life, but I'm not attracted to TJ, and with Homecoming fast approaching and his birthday right after that there isn't a good time to break us up.

On September 18, I attempted suicide by swallowing 24 aspirin, the next day going into the hospital for hearing loss and general vertigo/nausea. I am fine now, and physically it's like the attempt never happened, and while I'm in therapy and such, I sometimes feel like everything would be better if I had died. I went to a nutritionist and she found that not only is my brain addicted to casomorphine (protein found in dairy products), but my liver doesn't detoxify. Woot.

Meanwhile, James and I are close, and after talking rather deeply and extensively we've come to a conclusion of sorts that we consider each other siblings rather than members of the opposite sex (quote from him: "I don't even see you as a girl anymore, it's like you're my sister.") Lately it's been really nice to have him around to just talk to, you know? He's the light in my life for the moment, however cliched/clingy that may sound.

Currently doing homework so I better focus on that! I'll be updating as soon as I can.

Love,
Caitlyn