New Twitter, New Life

My new Twitter address is Myownspotlight. I chose the name because I don't need someone else to make me feel special or amazing. I don't need someone by my side for everything. My life doesn't need plans so young.

That's essentially my new life's philosophy. As you'll read on Twitter, I'm kinda different than I used to be. Not that I've really changed so much as woken up and realized what life should be. I know what I want my life to be and all I can do is be open to what God and the universe have in store for me.

Right now I'm using my iTouch to post so when I finally start my laptop up again I'll give everyone a full post on what's been happening.

Love,
Caitlyn

Make it stop.

I never wanted this. These silent tears screaming down my face. The feelings of worthlessness. The screwed up life. None of it.

Graham was my life and my world, and as much as I hate to admit it I still love him and still want our future. But it probably won't happen.

I'm back with TJ now. Weird right? I like him alot and care about him, am very sexually attracted to him. He was over today and things got heavy to say the least. It made me feel better than I have in a long time.

I decided to burn the things from my relationship with Graham. Certain items that either physically can't be burned or I couldn't emotionally will be mailed to him. We aren't speaking. Just can't deal with what he's done.

Confused.